Unloved. Long uncaressed. Forgotten like washing on the line. Neither a mad woman nor a go–getter With my dry honeypot, my sheared something, I want you now You whom I never yet met.
I’m putting my black panties, Covering my still hairy crotch I paint my lips, fluff my hair Climb on a pair of heels. I’m ready for you. Now I just have to squeeze into a tight dress To make you gasp, Have your heart skip a beat When you see me like that.
We’ll meet by chance–intentionally There were I can only be, Where men like you don’t usually go. That’s the kind I need, a fellow Who’ll take me home right away Knowing what he wants to do.
I don’t need any preliminaries. Like: Have you read so and so? Would you like to hear something classical Or do you prefer the blues? I heard all that before Like weather forecasts and correct time announcements.
Let me get to the matter at hand: I give you the visa To my body––my homeland, Once a good piece, Even now to be discarded just like that. My skin is velvet on the inside, Like iris. Smell it. Taste it. The moment you lock the door Press me against it And start kissing me Lower and lower. If you won’t do it to me, I’ll do it to you. My body, so wintry a moment ago, Is now a bush full of wild bees.
I squandered this and that But I know what I know. It’s high time—I’m in a panic. My years rode an express train Loaded with all kinds of luggage A romance or two, an occasional flirt Then off to old clothes shop.
I need you, sugar. I’m offering you a chance, Rub, cross out The chalk marks on a blackboard, Wipe my gloomy days, my empty days. Add a few needed words, Unlock where I was bolted.
I don’t need a drink. No music, mo sweet nothings. What I want is a good a fuck In the dark or with the lights on—it doesn’t matter I’m writing my life hour by hour I don’t care about other people’s stories I like to grab and scratch Like that cat on a hot tin roof Sizzling with desire. Oh, I don’t know how to hold my tongue. I talk too much, yelp about private things.
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